Fuck being undecided
I've been keeping promises on my end
You missed your turn, get out my way now
Don't be feeling bad your fucking vision shortsighted
Guess i'm in over my head
A lot can change with a weekend
Too many thoughts, need to sober up
Laying on the ground, just staring at the ceilingYeah she's got this bad feeling
It's been changing with the seasons
But we on another high
One hundred white lies
While I sing 'em you repeat it
Oh no, we've been here before
The fact that I'm with you
Does it mean I'm wrong like
Oh no, ain't felt this before
My falling for you
Side effect of Bordeaux
Need to get it off my chest
Strike the hornets nest
Memories I've repressed
Write 'em down to progress
Even though I've been
Procrastinating
Remembering that night
Still nauseating
Ain't no butterflies left
My stomach and head empty
All this shit I could've guessed
Red lights, oh so plenty
All these years gone pass
Birthdays and confetti
A reminder of the past
I'm having trouble forgettingFuck being undecided
I've been keeping promises on my end
You missed your turn, get out my way now
Don't be feeling bad your fucking vision shortsighted
Guess I'm in over my head
A lot can change with a weekend
Too many thoughts, need to sober up
Laying on the ground, just staring at the ceilingOh no
We've been here before
Does it mean I'm wrong
My falling for you
Side effect of BordeauxThey can't see your tears
When you're already drowning
Fuck all your fears
Read the room, your surroundings
All you said undone
Don't drag me in too
The test of my patience
Clearly fallen through
The toughest temptations
End with the frustration
Of hurting the most
So let's raise a toast
To the burning sensation
The anticipation
Of it going wrong
Yeah fuck you, so long11.03.22

Constant blasé
I'm stuck with my hubris
I say that I'm fine but
You're gonna see through this
I don't speak français but
Je me sens stupide
Ain't the first time so
I'm gonna get through thisHow many hours should it take to fall asleep
Checked in the baggage, stopped by security
Sunk into my bones a feeling bittersweet
If I could be, if I could beIf I could be free
From the wail of banshees
If I could just see
Across the endless-You wanna read my every move
Like a book, that gives me anxiety
Cover the pages the cowering's painless
High walls, built unreliably
In a routine, caught in a groove
Today I'm just suffering quietly (shh)
Words on pages, the writings are aimless
Eyeballs glazed entirely
Fallen entirely, writings in diaries
Just the right place for failed inquiries
Fled the scene, dissonant part of me
Where have you been and how'd you keep finding me
Counterproductive in all of the ways
Biweekly, can you call it a phase
Pieces keep falling where I cannot reach
Feeling sensations that I shouldn't preachHow many hours should it take to fall asleep
Checked in the baggage, stopped by security
Sunk into my bones a feeling bittersweet
If I could be, if I could beIf I could be free
From the wail of banshees
If I could just see
Across the endless-
If I could be free
From the wail of banshees
If I could just see
Across the endless sea22.07.22